Part one

There have been so many changes in my life in the last two years that i’m not even going to begin to describe all of them here. But i can’t seem to describe ANY of them either. A few months after my breakup, i came into some information that i was previously ignorant of. It…

Prelude

It’s been a long time since i’ve written anything. Even now i don’t want to write because sometimes just talking about experiences can cause me to fall back into that experience and undo the healing that i’ve worked so hard to earn. Sometimes just remembering what i’ve been through is like eating a lump of…

Ways to not give advice

Much has happened to me in the time since my last post. There hasn’t been a lot of good in these last few months but there’s been at least one good thing to come out of it. That and a lot of other items will have to be discussed in another post. Today i wanted…

empty

A few days ago i made a decision that i hoped i would never have to make. It was the last time i would acknowledge someone that used to be my best friend and it hurt more than i can describe. There was no satisfaction in doing this, no satisfaction whatsoever. It was one of…

Nisqually

Today was a bit rougher than i thought it would be. I knew i was going to have to drive through my ex’s home town of Olympia. That includes Tumwater, Olympia and Lacey. Each town has more than a few memories. But it was going to Nisqually National Wildlife Refuge that i was simultaneously looking…

about not having, nor wanting to ever have, children.

As a guy with a vasectomy, it’s not terribly common for others to comment on my choice to not reproduce. But it does happen. Unfortunately in our double standard culture and societies, it seems that women are targeted and have their integrity questioned when they choose to not have children. This is a somewhat funny…

have you ever been in love?

I had a date last weekend with a woman that i found to be more remarkable than i had anticipated. While she asked the lions share of questions, it was her last question to me that has stuck with me. “Have you ever been in love?” Gods, yes. Too many times? Not enough times? Neither…

back to the sweatatorium

I am finally in a position to be able to go back to the gym. Yesterday was my first day back and it was a true moment of humility for me. At the peak of my working out prior to losing my job and subsequently having surgery on my left foot (bone deformation addressed with…

am i some sort of magnet for crazy?

I went to the Oregon City library today so that I could focus on getting some things done without interruption. I’m on my laptop and quietly minding my business when this golf pencil came flying near me and landed near the woman sitting across from me. Whoever did it did was on the public computers…