aftermath | longing

I have lost my best friend. It’s the one phrase that echos through my day and evenings. It is the endless chorus whose words i understand but whose meaning i do not. I keep expecting to see windows pop up in my gmail. “Good morning, love,” “hi sweetie” or me asking how she slept- which…

aftermath | communication and honesty

As most of you now know, Adelle and i are no longer together. The aftermath has been difficult but sobering. My friends have helped me gain perspective— a perspective that i was missing because: It was Adelle who was my closest friend, lover and someone that just a few weeks ago, said she wanted to…

prologue to some announcements

Dear all, As some of you know and many of you do not, there have been some violent changes in my life. I am taking advantage of this time to make some of my own, internal changes, too. I’m going to make some announcements about another life that i’ve kept mostly secret for some time.…

carve

It hurt so much today to not chat with you. I’ve lost my best friend and i don’t think either of us fully understand why. I kept staring at my computer screen waiting to see, “hello, sweetie” pop up and i kept wanting to ask how you slept and to tell you again that i…

abandoning the hurt

25 May 2008 to 27 October 2012. Goodbye, my beautiful diamond. I have let my wounds define me. I have let years of hurt be the skin i wear. And now i am riddled with more. I have worn an exterior of not believing in myself because it hurt so much to be perceived as…

Nothing Ever Happens in Saskatchewan

Nothing Ever Happens in Saskatchewan part one: the visitor part two: shift part three: solstice media: watercolor, pencil, archival pen surface: 3 panels, 4″x6″, 140# cold press watercolor paper Note: i do not know why this thumbnail is so blurry. Will deal w/ it later. Larger view I’m beginning to post my stuff to imgur.…

on confidence

I spent this last weekend with a group of people with whom i have a shared set of values with. They are from all walks of life, income brackets and appearances. As i’ll describe in a bit, i went to this event without much in the way of expectation and what i ended up coming…

carla klein

A few years ago, using my Stumble Upon toolbar, i came across the website for Carla Klein. I was immediately struck by her imagery. See, i have an ongoing obsession with horizons and skies. Horizons are an interesting thing. They are boundaries that exist within our perception and nowhere else. They provide a dramatic stage…

huffington post post

I have a continual problem with what gets posted on the comments section of the Huffington Post and what doesn’t. As is standard with the Huffington Post, when a comment is censored, no reason is given nor is there any notification as to why. There are times when comments may not appear for hours. Again,…