wandering the sheltering sky

  • trading one pain for another (or how i have gone from an XXL to an XL)

    I’m sitting in the sauna in my gym. I can feel my heart rate is sustained at about 155 bpm and quite possibly higher. I am listening to the third movement of Low– a symphony originally composed by David Bowie and Brian Eno. This version is rendered by Philip Glass and is one of the… Read more

  • on gay marriage

    A few minutes ago, OKCupid had a question about how i feel about “Gay Marriage.” I find the phrase repulsive. It’s marriage- period. Marriage is a legally binding contract that describes, among other things, rights of shared ownership and property. It is not a license/ contract that is contingent on mutual love, it is not… Read more

  • today is difficult

    Today is Thanksgiving. Today is difficult. I was so sure that i’d finally found someone that wanted to go the distance; to spend their life with me. She was someone that i was so sure i’d be with to watch her hair turn to silver, whose kiss i would receive every night, whose smile would… Read more

  • aftermath | longing

    I have lost my best friend. It’s the one phrase that echos through my day and evenings. It is the endless chorus whose words i understand but whose meaning i do not. I keep expecting to see windows pop up in my gmail. “Good morning, love,” “hi sweetie” or me asking how she slept- which… Read more

  • aftermath | communication and honesty

    As most of you now know, Adelle and i are no longer together. The aftermath has been difficult but sobering. My friends have helped me gain perspective— a perspective that i was missing because: It was Adelle who was my closest friend, lover and someone that just a few weeks ago, said she wanted to… Read more

  • prologue to some announcements

    Dear all, As some of you know and many of you do not, there have been some violent changes in my life. I am taking advantage of this time to make some of my own, internal changes, too. I’m going to make some announcements about another life that i’ve kept mostly secret for some time.… Read more

  • carve

    It hurt so much today to not chat with you. I’ve lost my best friend and i don’t think either of us fully understand why. I kept staring at my computer screen waiting to see, “hello, sweetie” pop up and i kept wanting to ask how you slept and to tell you again that i… Read more

  • abandoning the hurt

    25 May 2008 to 27 October 2012. Goodbye, my beautiful diamond. I have let my wounds define me. I have let years of hurt be the skin i wear. And now i am riddled with more. I have worn an exterior of not believing in myself because it hurt so much to be perceived as… Read more

  • Saskatchewan, Alberta & BC- seas of barley and the sheltering sky.

    Over the years i’ve had a few paintings that use “Saskatchewan” in the title and as of a few days ago, i finally completed and have posted a triptych that i have made titled, “Nothing Ever Happens in Saskatchewan”. So of course, this has prompted even MOAR people to ask me why i am so… Read more

  • Nothing Ever Happens in Saskatchewan

    Nothing Ever Happens in Saskatchewan part one: the visitor part two: shift part three: solstice media: watercolor, pencil, archival pen surface: 3 panels, 4″x6″, 140# cold press watercolor paper Note: i do not know why this thumbnail is so blurry. Will deal w/ it later. Larger view I’m beginning to post my stuff to imgur.… Read more