Saskatchewan, Alberta & BC- seas of barley and the sheltering sky.

Over the years i’ve had a few paintings that use “Saskatchewan” in the title and as of a few days ago, i finally completed and have posted a triptych that i have made titled, “Nothing Ever Happens in Saskatchewan”.

So of course, this has prompted even MOAR people to ask me why i am so preoccupied with Saskatchewan and Alberta.

This is one reason why.

And this is another.

We all have dreams. One of mine is to spend a few weeks driving the plains of Alberta and Saskatchewan and exploring British Columbia.

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Note: i made a couple or more mistakes in this narration. Some are technical as i’m still trying to learn how to use Audacity but i mention Edmonton as the place where SCTV began. This is incorrect. The television production of SCTV began in Toronto, i believe and was moved to Edmonton after the first or second season (if memory serves me right).

Music credits to be posted tomorrow.

on confidence

I spent this last weekend with a group of people with whom i have a shared set of values with. They are from all walks of life, income brackets and appearances. As i’ll describe in a bit, i went to this event without much in the way of expectation and what i ended up coming away with is, among other things, a clearer state of mind and a healthier perspective on a facet of my life that has been more damaged than i thought it was- my confidence.

This journal entry will most likely take on a whole new level of self-indulgence. That’s not my intention. My intention is to put some of my experiences into perspective not only for myself but also for others that might have given up their confidence or knows someone that’s given up their’s.

I will be adding to this entry as time goes on. It may even take me a few days to complete it. I STRONGLY suggest not taking in this entire entry in one sitting.

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part one- What Confidence Used To Mean, What It Came To Mean

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part two- You Were Born Alone, You Will Die Alone, Accidental Intimidation

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part three- The Three Things That Forever Changed Me

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part four- Peeling the Husk Away, Afterthoughts

References
The Fifteen Year Nap, Narrated

carla klein

A few years ago, using my Stumble Upon toolbar, i came across the website for Carla Klein.

I was immediately struck by her imagery.

See, i have an ongoing obsession with horizons and skies. Horizons are an interesting thing. They are boundaries that exist within our perception and nowhere else. They provide a dramatic stage by which a day both enters and leaves our lives. They can turn a dismal gray day into an eternity where sunrise, daytime and sunsets have little meaning.
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a difference in philosophy

Last Friday i had an interview in Seattle (yes, Friday the 13th). I think i did reasonably well but in any interview setting, there are always two factors that will work against me. The first is, it’s an interview. No matter how confident i am in myself and my abilities, there’s a part of me that’s nervous. There were a couple of answers that i gave that i wish i could have done over again.
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narration : the fifteen year nap

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part one

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part two

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part three

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part four

This entry has a few goals. One is to provide a narrative about how my undiagnosed and untreated sleep apnea irrevocably and negatively affected my life. The other is to continue building samples of my voice and the third is to do a longer narration so that i can hear myself and learn from my mistakes.
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bzzzz…..

media: watercolor, pencil, archival pen

I’ll add more to this post later. I just wanted to post it tonight.

stupid, stupid delays

Hi. I’m here and there these days. Had to go to the E/R on Thanksgiving morning thanks to a kidney stone that decided that was the best time to make its presence known. Had surgery for it last Wednesday but unfortunately the doctor was unable to reach the stone. We’re trying again this coming Wednesday.

Allergies are hammering me, the heat is out in the house and I ran into some extra expenditures that I wasn’t anticipating. It’s not shaping up to be a very good Christmas. There are so many things I want to do/ get for friends and family and there just never seems to be enough time or money.

I’ll update everyone on the weirdness known as my life asap. Promise.

hi. i’m back

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This was the summer of insanity and inanity. I have never been so close to someone who can only be described as an unemployed, alcoholic, grifter whose diet consisted of scams, ponzi schemes, lies, laziness, manipulation and rage. The amount of cognitive dissonance this person lives with is truly indescribable… so i’m not going to bother describing it. Not tonight anyway. Tonight, i’m just poking my head out of my burrow to let everyone know contrary to what you might have thought, i am actually about.

Sigh. I just listened to my recording. It rendered fine locally but once it was posted, the quality has degraded. I’ll look into it tomorrow to tomorrow’ish.